Thursday, September 13, 2012

Sometimes it's OK to not be OK.

Depression: 8
Anxiety: 9

The session: It's a bad day. It's been a bad 24+ hours, all related to "The Event" but I'm not ready to go into it.  But sometimes it's OK to not be OK, and that's what I'm learning. Therefore, it's ok

Its Ok Thursdays

... to not be 100% OK 100% of the time. Sometimes things are broken and the only way you can fix them is by first aknowledging they're broken.
... that I will be making use of my "as needed" Xanax today. Within medically suggested guidelines, of course.
... to know that I had the right conversation, but to still think it completely sucks.
... to think that using my Starbucks card with money on it doesn't really count as spending money because it's money I've already spent loading it.
... that I'm procrastinating on some work to write this blog because I'm internally processing the order in which I want to complete the work tasks.
... that I'm psyching myself up to make a phone call that I don't want to make, even though it's an easy one. I don't like talking on the phone and that's ok.
... to be ridiculously excited to work from home in sweats and a blanket tomorrow.
... to be depressed and anxious about it, but still earnestly believe that things will get better.
... to know my God is working even when I can't see it, but still need to repeat that over and over again. I will always choose to believe.

1 comment:

  1. God is always at work! great reminder!

    Following you now! Have a great night! Stop by and say hello! :)